My Reality Check...

"The worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you know you can never have them."
~Unknown

     I got slapped in the face with reality today when talking to a friend. He said that if I honestly cared so much for this guy, That then I never really could of moved on yet. All I am doing is pretending the feelings aren't there, and acting like I honestly am happy that he is dating someone else.
     I told him he was wrong, that I was happy and I did move on...
 But today when I was sick, and when I am sick I have these vivid dreams and they feel all to real. And the dreams themselves are not like regular dreams, there is nothing to set them apart from reality. I had a dream about him, I was sick and he was there. So many feelings came flooding back and I realized they never left.
     Does this mean I am now not okay that he is dating someone else?
No, I am fine that he is. I am glad he is happy and I am not just saying that. All this means is, the reason It can never seem to work out with anyone else, is because I am still not over this one person.
     Let me tell it to you straight...There are going to be times where your best friend or guy you truly like is going to be standing right next to you, and all you can do is put a smile face and pretend that your heart is not breaking with every word he speaks from his mouth. That you are not in pain or inches away from your breaking point...
    Because the truth is, If you really care about someone,they come first. That even if it hurts you for them to be happy, you will do it.
    Time keeps ticking, and you never will know what lays in the future. Maybe things will work out for you in the end, But there is no use on trying to change what has already been done. The more you complain about a guy who is taken, the worse it will be. All you can do is keep your head up high and keep walking forward.