"The worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you know you can never have them."
~Unknown
I got slapped in the face with reality today when talking to a friend. He said that if I honestly cared so much for this guy, That then I never really could of moved on yet. All I am doing is pretending the feelings aren't there, and acting like I honestly am happy that he is dating someone else.
I told him he was wrong, that I was happy and I did move on...
But today when I was sick, and when I am sick I have these vivid dreams and they feel all to real. And the dreams themselves are not like regular dreams, there is nothing to set them apart from reality. I had a dream about him, I was sick and he was there. So many feelings came flooding back and I realized they never left.
Does this mean I am now not okay that he is dating someone else?
No, I am fine that he is. I am glad he is happy and I am not just saying that. All this means is, the reason It can never seem to work out with anyone else, is because I am still not over this one person.
Let me tell it to you straight...There are going to be times where your best friend or guy you truly like is going to be standing right next to you, and all you can do is put a smile face and pretend that your heart is not breaking with every word he speaks from his mouth. That you are not in pain or inches away from your breaking point...
Because the truth is, If you really care about someone,they come first. That even if it hurts you for them to be happy, you will do it.
Time keeps ticking, and you never will know what lays in the future. Maybe things will work out for you in the end, But there is no use on trying to change what has already been done. The more you complain about a guy who is taken, the worse it will be. All you can do is keep your head up high and keep walking forward.
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
What Valentines Day Is Truly All About...
Can we please get something clear here?
Valentines day has turned into this battle of the "Couples" vs. "Singles"!
Seriously?!?
Valentines day is a holiday meant for showing you care about someone OR someoneS, it is not just for "The couples". If you don't have a special person in your life then instead of crying a river or turning all anti valentines day, why don't you just try and make someone else's day who needs it for a change. Show them they aren't forgotten, and stop being so self absorbed and get over the fact you are single. Because it is NOT about the expensive gifts or the fancy things, it's about showing someone or someone else they matter.
Don't get so focused on what a guy/girl should get you. Try to make someone else shine for the day.
Some say that Valentines Day is pathetic because people should act this way everyday. It's true, everyday you should strive to show that you care about the people around you, but Valentines day is a day that you can go the extra mile and make someone else you're priority.
Every year I pick a person that I know is either feeling down, upset, or just needs a pick me up and I focus on them. I still try to make everyone around me feel loved, but I try to especially make that one person's day. (You can tell this is my favorite holiday can't you?)
Today I decorated the entry to the classroom with sticky notes and letters saying yes, no, maybe, and sweet little sayings. I led it to his seat where a huge stuffed teddy bear was sitting in his seat with roses, chocolate, and a note saying, "Will you be my Valentine?" I didn't go all and get anything expensive, I just took the time to actually prepare an idea.
To be honest, it made his day. I am pretty sure I never caught him not smiling. I am not dating this guy, or have a huge crush on him, He is just one of my friends that I decided to show he mattered, That I cared that he was here.
Now you don't have to do anything on the lines that I did, but can you see what I am getting at here?
Valentines day is the one holiday that is legitly only about trying to show people that you care, that they matter here. Stop talking down about it, or hating on this day because you are alone, or you don't get anything.
But hear me when I say...YOU MATTER!
And instead about wallowing in the fact you don't have someone to share it with, or he/she didn't do anything. Change your thinking to how can I make someone else smile.
That is what February 14th (Valentines Day) is all about, at least to me it is...
Valentines day has turned into this battle of the "Couples" vs. "Singles"!
Seriously?!?
Valentines day is a holiday meant for showing you care about someone OR someoneS, it is not just for "The couples". If you don't have a special person in your life then instead of crying a river or turning all anti valentines day, why don't you just try and make someone else's day who needs it for a change. Show them they aren't forgotten, and stop being so self absorbed and get over the fact you are single. Because it is NOT about the expensive gifts or the fancy things, it's about showing someone or someone else they matter.
Don't get so focused on what a guy/girl should get you. Try to make someone else shine for the day.
Some say that Valentines Day is pathetic because people should act this way everyday. It's true, everyday you should strive to show that you care about the people around you, but Valentines day is a day that you can go the extra mile and make someone else you're priority.
Every year I pick a person that I know is either feeling down, upset, or just needs a pick me up and I focus on them. I still try to make everyone around me feel loved, but I try to especially make that one person's day. (You can tell this is my favorite holiday can't you?)
Today I decorated the entry to the classroom with sticky notes and letters saying yes, no, maybe, and sweet little sayings. I led it to his seat where a huge stuffed teddy bear was sitting in his seat with roses, chocolate, and a note saying, "Will you be my Valentine?" I didn't go all and get anything expensive, I just took the time to actually prepare an idea.
To be honest, it made his day. I am pretty sure I never caught him not smiling. I am not dating this guy, or have a huge crush on him, He is just one of my friends that I decided to show he mattered, That I cared that he was here.
Now you don't have to do anything on the lines that I did, but can you see what I am getting at here?
Valentines day is the one holiday that is legitly only about trying to show people that you care, that they matter here. Stop talking down about it, or hating on this day because you are alone, or you don't get anything.
But hear me when I say...YOU MATTER!
And instead about wallowing in the fact you don't have someone to share it with, or he/she didn't do anything. Change your thinking to how can I make someone else smile.
That is what February 14th (Valentines Day) is all about, at least to me it is...
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Young and Stupid...
"To be old and wise, you must first be young and stupid."
~Unknown
I have found that people will look at a younger crowd and measure them up to these intelligent and wise adults. Saying stuff like, why can't you be more like him or her? Why do you not think before you act?
The honest truth here is simple, people that you look up to, that you measure others to, become wise not because they were born that way, but because they first became and grew to be that way.
People don't one day understand the feelings of loss, betrayal, pain, or despair because they read it in a magazine or watched it in a movie. True understanding came by going through that pain and despair, that loss or hardship, and overcoming it, and letting it shape who might become.
Wise people have stories and advice because they use to be in the same boat as you. They lost love ones, they tasted the bitterness of defeat and betrayal, they made wrong decisions and had to face the consequences that followed.
Don't judge a person by their mistakes, appreciate them, when they overcome their mistakes and learn from them.
Life is not about doing everything right...it's about living with what you've got and learning to move forward with it.
Like I said before, you're not born wise... it's something you become.
~Unknown
I have found that people will look at a younger crowd and measure them up to these intelligent and wise adults. Saying stuff like, why can't you be more like him or her? Why do you not think before you act?
The honest truth here is simple, people that you look up to, that you measure others to, become wise not because they were born that way, but because they first became and grew to be that way.
People don't one day understand the feelings of loss, betrayal, pain, or despair because they read it in a magazine or watched it in a movie. True understanding came by going through that pain and despair, that loss or hardship, and overcoming it, and letting it shape who might become.
Wise people have stories and advice because they use to be in the same boat as you. They lost love ones, they tasted the bitterness of defeat and betrayal, they made wrong decisions and had to face the consequences that followed.
Don't judge a person by their mistakes, appreciate them, when they overcome their mistakes and learn from them.
Life is not about doing everything right...it's about living with what you've got and learning to move forward with it.
Like I said before, you're not born wise... it's something you become.
Saturday, December 31, 2011
What Are Friends For...
Have you ever heard the saying, "What are friends for?"
Well an obvious answer came to mind...friends are suppose to stick there by your side through thick and thin. Correct?
Then why is it that when you have a group of friends(where of course there will be conflicting dilemmas) at the worst times right in the middle of all the chaos, we tend to turn against each other?
For instance, two of the friends in the group have a fight, what happens? Usually sides are taken, words are spoken, and then everything goes crashing down the never ending cliff.
Friends are not only suppose to stand by each other when they are hurt, but also when they make mistakes, dumb mistakes, and the worst moves. Because everyone at some point will say the worst things, let their emotions fly a tad but too freely, and loose themselves for awhile.
Everyone makes mistakes, but that doesn't give you the right to talk bad about them behind their back, or leave them hanging...alone.
A real friend would care enough to suck it up, let it go, and just be there for each them, cause what are friends for right?
Well an obvious answer came to mind...friends are suppose to stick there by your side through thick and thin. Correct?
Then why is it that when you have a group of friends(where of course there will be conflicting dilemmas) at the worst times right in the middle of all the chaos, we tend to turn against each other?
For instance, two of the friends in the group have a fight, what happens? Usually sides are taken, words are spoken, and then everything goes crashing down the never ending cliff.
Friends are not only suppose to stand by each other when they are hurt, but also when they make mistakes, dumb mistakes, and the worst moves. Because everyone at some point will say the worst things, let their emotions fly a tad but too freely, and loose themselves for awhile.
Everyone makes mistakes, but that doesn't give you the right to talk bad about them behind their back, or leave them hanging...alone.
A real friend would care enough to suck it up, let it go, and just be there for each them, cause what are friends for right?
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Someday It Will Be Worth It...
"Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together."
~ Unknown
I remember in the past saying that it was only goodbye for now, that if it was meant to be we would find ourselves together once more. I knew that we would go separate ways, that things would never be the same again.
I watched you move on so fast, leaving the words you left me with, empty and hollow with a meaningless shell. I sat there as I saw your eyes so happy looking into the eyes of someone else. And I knew that, all I ever was, was just some girl you had a crush on.
I fell harder than I should of...
I held on hopelessly...
It tried moving on, I got so close but you were still there. I hated it, because I sat there pretending that I was fine, that I had moved on. When really...I wasn't.
They say if you really care about someone, you won't stand in the way of letting them be happy...Even if it means hurting yourself instead. I figured out that means you might hurt longer then expected.
I do know that, even though it hurts in the end, which is far away, it will be worth it.
Worth the heart break, the nights crying myself to sleep, the pain of watching people I like being with someone else rubbed in my face...someday it will be worth it...even if it doesn't seem like it right now.
~ Unknown
I remember in the past saying that it was only goodbye for now, that if it was meant to be we would find ourselves together once more. I knew that we would go separate ways, that things would never be the same again.
I watched you move on so fast, leaving the words you left me with, empty and hollow with a meaningless shell. I sat there as I saw your eyes so happy looking into the eyes of someone else. And I knew that, all I ever was, was just some girl you had a crush on.
I fell harder than I should of...
I held on hopelessly...
It tried moving on, I got so close but you were still there. I hated it, because I sat there pretending that I was fine, that I had moved on. When really...I wasn't.
They say if you really care about someone, you won't stand in the way of letting them be happy...Even if it means hurting yourself instead. I figured out that means you might hurt longer then expected.
I do know that, even though it hurts in the end, which is far away, it will be worth it.
Worth the heart break, the nights crying myself to sleep, the pain of watching people I like being with someone else rubbed in my face...someday it will be worth it...even if it doesn't seem like it right now.
Friday, November 18, 2011
Look back...
I watch as the tear falls from her cheek. Time keeps ticking, but in that moment everything stops for what seems like minutes.She was her best friend, the person she confided everything with. She was my friend as well. So when I looked down and saw all our feet huddled around in a circle, a painful lump started in my throat when I had to accept that there was a set of feet missing.
Time will never stop, no matter how hard you wish it would.
Time will never reverse, so you could fix the things you wish I could.
The fact is, people will come and go in our life, and it won't necessarily be an easy ride. Life is tricky, nothing is for certain, and time is never set in stone. One second everything is fine, when the next second a person you care about could be gone forever.
What I am trying to get at is, take every second you've got and make something out of it. Take chances, laugh, and cry. Take every day like it is your last, because one day it might. Make sure that when that one day does comes, you can look back and and not regret the time you had...
Saturday, November 5, 2011
When...
"I'm standing in the rain, as my hair falls in my face.
It's hard to see, like a hazey window pane....
I can't see in front of me
If in my future it's you I see..."
I've said that if you really like someone, then they are worth the wait...
A question came across my mind recently that brought me back to this certain subject. Patience is a virtue right? But after how many disappointments, hopes crushed, and heart breaking events does the virtue of patience turns to hopelessness.
This, I do not have a perfect answer to, or an answer at all. When you are young you never know if the person you are falling for is the right person. Because, you will fall in love, break your heart, and cry numerous times in your life. It is just life, cause you never know if your falling for the right person till you give them a chance.
This though, does not leave my question answered.
If you fall for someone who at the moment does not have the mutual feeling, when is it worth holding on, and when is it time to moving on?
How can you ever be sure?
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