I just can't believe you are gone...

You were such a great person...you weren't afraid to be you...You have such a great personality and was always happy. I wish there were things I could of told you before you left... You are such an amazing person and I loved you so much... I am going to miss you...you were a great friend to me and so many other people...and i know you're in a better place...and ill never forget you

Kasey Hiatt:
You were...
smart, funny, energetic, sporty, amazing, cute, and a great friend. You had a heart like none other. You dealt with so much crap and you never let it get you down. You are so tough and so strong.

I remember...

I remember playing volleyball with you... You always played tough. You never let a challenge pass you by. You always had confidence in the team and me.

I remember my birthday party. You had the biggest smile on your face and you were always laughing. The light in your eyes would just fill up the room.

I remember hanging out on Halloween with you and your little brother. You would never pass up free candy and instead of saying it was lame to trick or treat...you just had fun with it.

I remember passing you in the hall and you always said hi to me and left me with a smile on my face.

I will always remember you as a great girl and the strongest spirit...you were truly amazing.

I will never forget you...

Lied to...

Have you ever heard the saying, "The worst thing about being lied to is knowing you weren't worth the truth."

I know that words you might say are hard, and that you are scared to tell me, but there is one thing in life that I can't take and that is being lied to right in my face.
Life is hard, that's very easy to realize. There are times where people make mistakes and they do things that are hurtful to others. But when people do something or know something that might be harsh to me and they lie to cover it up, I just don't get it.
Seriously?!?! Can you just stop and think for a moment.
Don't you think that lying to my face about something and me hearing about it later will save my feelings?
Really?
Well FYI hey you ya it doesn't...It makes me feel like you didn't care enough to tell me. That some how I wasn't worth telling.It will just hurt me more later on...
If you know me you should know that I don't hold on to things, keep grudges, or hate anyone. I will be fine. I can take care of myself.
Life is short...don't waste the little time you get...

Water...

One of my favorite things in the world is water. For those who don't know me, I love the water. If I could breathe under water I would stay in the water forever.
Have any of you ever just like sat at the bottom of a pool and just let everything soak in.
The feel of the water hugging your body.
The gradual movement of the water rocking back and forth.
The sound of every little movement in the water.
Please don't take me as weird but it's true. To me, taking in the peace of the water lets me forget about life outside of the water.
It let's me catch my breath...while holding it under water.

Fact about life...

I stopped for a second today and looked around. There is so much heart break, lies, and pain in this world. Everyone I am sure have already noticed this, because it is everywhere. But has anyone stopped to just think?
It's so hard to catch a break in this world to take a breath and just think things through. Then people start asking, "Why did this happen to me?"
There might not be a concrete answer to that, but there is one thing I can tell you. For every lie that tears us apart, for every heart break that makes us cry our selves to sleep, and every bit of pain that hazzes our thoughts, there is something to gain.
This probably sounds silly to you, but it's true. Everytime that we have a hardship, it shapes us to who we will become. We learn from our trials everytime and we pick our self back up after we have fallen down. Things tears us down, they makes us cry, and they take away the light in us.
The fact of the matter is, it is true that Bad things happen to good people, but that is just a fact about life... you just have to keep your head up

The Little Things...

People say that "Life is about the little things".
The honest truth is Life is about everything but the little things in our lives is what makes life worth living.
The moments where you heart skips a beat, when you laugh so hard you cry, or the moments where you're with people you love and you stop and think to yourself..."This is where I belong".
Everything we do in life is important, but its living in the little moments that makes life so great.
This means, don't forget that everything in life is important, Just don't get caught up in the big stuff.
Life is about living...So make every moment worth while.

After a Storm...

Can you tell me that everything is going to be back to normal?
That everything will be alright?
This question seems to be asked around a lot and we seem to always get the same answer, "Yes it will just give it time." Now that is a very valid answer, but is it the honest truth?
What I think the most honest answer is, "Things will never be the same...but that doesn't mean life won't get better."
The truth is, once you have experienced something that just knocks you down. Life will never go back to the way it once was. For example, when you get a deep cut in your skin...there will always be a scar left over. That is the same way in life... there will always be a lingering mark after a hard experience in life.
But that doesn't mean life won't get better, because it will if you let it. As long as you move on and give things time it will get better.
Do you know the saying, "After every storm there is a Rainbow"?
You only get to live this life once...don't let the scars keep you from living it...

Father's Day...

So today is Father's Day and it just got me thinking (I seem to do that alot) that Father's Day has a deeper meaning to alot of people that I and alot of us dont always consider.

There are people who get to see their father every day and take it for granted. (Heard that before?) But this is so true. For us teenagers we look at ar fathers and dads and just see someone who though we love them they also are our restrictions. This is the guy who has the final say of everything and says no... this is how we take them for granted.

Fathers are so much more then just an adult figure. They are (with the help of moms don't forget) the ones who raise us up, provide for the family so you can hang with your friends, and they care for us and love us more then we realize. They are the ones that made us who we are today.

There are people out there that take these memories and hold on to them dearly, because they dont get to see their father like we do. Whether it is there father has died, they serve in the military, or are just gone.

These people charish the little time with their fathers as they can. They can see the true importance of fathers. Like I have said before, look at things from different perspectives. Like for today, don't look as it as just any old day that you give your dad a card.

Take today and think back on all the good memories and remember of why you love your dad and so thankful that he is your father. Because you don't know how many memories in the future you will have with him. Charish every moment you have.

You just never know....

****SIDE NOTE****
Sorry I haven't typed lately just been busy but will try to update the blog everyday(:
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So here is something I just noticed, that I am sure all of you have realized way before me. So this is old news, But, in life...almost everything never goes as planned. But to be painfully honest that's just life right? If life was a straight and smooth road it wouldn't be right.
I mean if life was easy we wouldn't have such great songs on the radio, or half as many stories to talk about. Life is just never what we expect period...
But the lesson to be learned here is very simple... with every changed plan, spontaneous event, or problem that gets in your way... don't obsess on how its not what you wanted or expected...Take what you got and go with it.... Because you never know,It might turn out better then you expected....

Dumb things...

So this one will be very short. This is just to all the teens out there here is a word of advice...
Teens do the dumbest stuff. Why do you ask? Cause we don't look at life from different perspectives. We look at it like we are up close and can't see anything around us other then that one thing that's happening.
Well here is the thing, and this is the advice, look at life in different perspectives, because the dumb things we do will come back and bite us in the butt. We will get caught whether it's today, tomorrow, or in the future. And if you are not careful...you will regret it for the rest of your life.
Life's about living right now and tomorrow...don't do anything that will jeopardize your future...

Not so funny thing...

It's a funny thing how you can go into a relationship and at the beginning think nothing of it. That you don't think it will last that long...but it ends up to be a relationship where you care for the person more then you ever have for someone in a long time... or ever. But you also know, its going to be the most hurtful one, because you're never going to want to let go and you know in the future when ever it does break it will be the hardest to get over.
It's scary to think that one of the best relationships that I have ever been in seems to have an expiration date. Don't get me wrong I don't want it to...at all...but you can tell sometimes that the separation is taking an effect on not just you, but on the other as well...
I'm in love with a guy for the first time...
It hurts so much when I cant see him or talk to him...
But when I am with him I don't care about the pain I just wanna be with him...
Then i wonder, if its hurting him as well...is it selfish for me to hold on?

"You and me" - Lifehouse ( No matter where life will take me that will always be my favorite song... for many reasons...)

How is it...

How is it that you can care so much about someone that when you miss them its like someone is just punching you in the gut. That it makes it so hard to breath without them.
But when you're with them it's like nothing else matters. How your heart skips a beat when they are near. That the world doesn't matter as long as you are with them.
When you miss them you ask if it's worth it...
When your with them you know it is...
But you still cry..every night...because your in love with a guy that you're slowly loosing...

Fragile thing...

Life is a fragile thing...Everyone gets mad, everyone has issues, and everyone has their limits. People are stupid, People will push the limit, and People make mistakes.
But here is what I have learned...Life is a matter if you can pick yourself up after you have broken down...that people do need to cry but whether you can keep a smile for your friends till you get home or you wait till your with a good friend...that there are people you can talk to about personal matters and then there are people that you just can't...In short life is hard, It's never easy, and it wont get any easier...It is just a matter if whether you pick yourself up and you get stronger