"Even when a day comes where it hurts to smile, feels good to cry, and hard to move forward...know that in time tomorrow will always come."
You know those days where it's just like everything starts to go wrong? You wake up late, you spill your cereal or a drink all over you, and you just can't seem to do anything right?
There are so many things that can go wrong and for some weird circumstance they all happen in the same day.
These are the days where you know that you have to fake a smile, but it hurts. Where you pretend to still be in a good mood when honestly, you wish you could just lay in the rain and cry. Where crying feels like the only way that some of the weight on your shoulders and chest will fade away.
I am going to be clear and to the point here. Those days suck. Yes I just said suck on a blog. Think it is unprofessional? Well it is the truth and I will bet that you all feel the way. I mean come on, please, when a day comes around like this I am pretty sure you don't say, wow this day is....and start reciting a huge vocabulary with educational words from the dictionary. Yeah, if you do then, okay...good?
I mean I look around and I can see everything crashing down in front of me, my past haunting me, and everything else fading away.
The things is, today will pass and tomorrow will come. Not saying everything will just magically get better but they will start to ease...and just by the way, don't be scared to cry.
Friday, September 30, 2011
Friday, September 23, 2011
Funny story I guess...
The honest truth is, There are millions upon millions of people that have a worse dealt hand then me. I know that, and there will be people who will read this blog then murmur and say nasty things. I understand this, that this is a fact. Just know that this blog is my personal journal, my thoughts about stuff, or I just need to get something off my mind. But hey, if there is anyone that reads it and likes this blog, whether they think it is interesting, or something they can relate to that is wonderful too.
So to continue....
I have somewhat of a funny story to tell about today.
So today was the homecoming carnival. Booths everywhere, food, junk food, games, hats, clothes, EVERYTHING! It was truly amazing. I was walking around with my friends, tasting some food here, watching some kids try to sumo wrestle here, or watching these kids getting dunked into water. Well my friends and I walk up to this Spanish booth, and we see kids stuffing Jalapeno peppers into his mouth. Entertaining right? Well, I guess the booth was doing is you try to eat as many jalapeno peppers as you can in 1 minute. It seemed very difficult since we were seeing football players crying over these big green jalapeno peppers. Like oh my bejoshua this seems excruciating.
Well my friend and I finally get up the courage to do a face off between him and I. I feel like I have to beat him cause I am a girl and I need to represent! He is overly confident that he is going to win because...well...he is a guy.
So they say go and I get one pepper down easy. And I thought, Wow that wasn't that hard at all! It wasn't till the second one did the burning slowly start to occur, but I kept on going. By the 3 pepper, my mouth and throat were burning. I would bite the pepper and the juice would splatter and pour into my mouth like an exploding volcano. As the juice would slowly drip drip drip down my throat the burning would slowly begin.
At 45 seconds I had 3 peppers down. I had to get a 4th, I just had to. So I grab this decently large pepper and just bite it down. The timer had rung and in the end I beat my friend 4 peppers - 2 1/2.
Total like in your face victory right...? Wrong, by this time the burning effect had reached its full momentum and the tears were rolling down both of our faces. I throats tasted like nasty fire, and our stomachs swished and turned to the stinging punch.
I got a lot of cheers from girls and guys. It was pretty fun...except...I spent the next 20 minutes in the bathroom throwing up.
I guess the lesson to be learned in this post is a very DUH- lesson. DO NOT try to eat a huge amount of jalapenos in one minute. It will come and sting you right back.
So to continue....
I have somewhat of a funny story to tell about today.
So today was the homecoming carnival. Booths everywhere, food, junk food, games, hats, clothes, EVERYTHING! It was truly amazing. I was walking around with my friends, tasting some food here, watching some kids try to sumo wrestle here, or watching these kids getting dunked into water. Well my friends and I walk up to this Spanish booth, and we see kids stuffing Jalapeno peppers into his mouth. Entertaining right? Well, I guess the booth was doing is you try to eat as many jalapeno peppers as you can in 1 minute. It seemed very difficult since we were seeing football players crying over these big green jalapeno peppers. Like oh my bejoshua this seems excruciating.
Well my friend and I finally get up the courage to do a face off between him and I. I feel like I have to beat him cause I am a girl and I need to represent! He is overly confident that he is going to win because...well...he is a guy.
So they say go and I get one pepper down easy. And I thought, Wow that wasn't that hard at all! It wasn't till the second one did the burning slowly start to occur, but I kept on going. By the 3 pepper, my mouth and throat were burning. I would bite the pepper and the juice would splatter and pour into my mouth like an exploding volcano. As the juice would slowly drip drip drip down my throat the burning would slowly begin.
At 45 seconds I had 3 peppers down. I had to get a 4th, I just had to. So I grab this decently large pepper and just bite it down. The timer had rung and in the end I beat my friend 4 peppers - 2 1/2.
Total like in your face victory right...? Wrong, by this time the burning effect had reached its full momentum and the tears were rolling down both of our faces. I throats tasted like nasty fire, and our stomachs swished and turned to the stinging punch.
I got a lot of cheers from girls and guys. It was pretty fun...except...I spent the next 20 minutes in the bathroom throwing up.
I guess the lesson to be learned in this post is a very DUH- lesson. DO NOT try to eat a huge amount of jalapenos in one minute. It will come and sting you right back.
Monday, September 12, 2011
Someday...
Someday...
That is the word that is repeated so many times everyday...
Someday I will be...
Someday I can....
Someday my life will change...
We all say it, and we all mean it. It is the thought that gives us hope, gives us passion, gives us a reason to move on in our life. Someday is like a dream that we are so close we can almost touch. People everyday hope and imagine a future where everything will work out. That maybe not right now, but that one day things will change or become something amazing.
Someday can mean almost anything, a change in life, an achievement, almost anything, because we as a people know that just because things are crappy now, or not where we want it to be. Doesn't mean it's going to stay this way.
Someday things will change.
Someday I will make something of myself.
Someday I will be the me I want to be.
That is the word that is repeated so many times everyday...
Someday I will be...
Someday I can....
Someday my life will change...
We all say it, and we all mean it. It is the thought that gives us hope, gives us passion, gives us a reason to move on in our life. Someday is like a dream that we are so close we can almost touch. People everyday hope and imagine a future where everything will work out. That maybe not right now, but that one day things will change or become something amazing.
Someday can mean almost anything, a change in life, an achievement, almost anything, because we as a people know that just because things are crappy now, or not where we want it to be. Doesn't mean it's going to stay this way.
Someday things will change.
Someday I will make something of myself.
Someday I will be the me I want to be.
Saturday, September 3, 2011
It is how we grow...
"One day at a time--this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering."
~Unknown
Sometimes in life we tend to feel like we are just given the worst opportunities, the worst trials, and the worst consequences. Everyday that comes seems to tear us apart, knock us down, and question who we really are.Like I have said in past post... Life isn't fair, but what can you do about it? What happened yesterday happened. What happened today happened. And whatever happens tomorrow will happen. It is just fact...
People (Including myself), always get wrapped up in the past, in our mistakes, and just won't let it go. We let the negative experiences linger on, wrapping tightly around our life. The problem with this is, yeah crap happens, but what are you going to do to make the best of what you've got. If you can't change the past, why do you keep letting it take you down instead of living today the best you can.
Life is never perfect, and never will be, but you can always take a bad situations and make something new come out of it.
Now please don't take this the wrong way. I am not saying forget, and I am not saying that in every situation there is a way to shape it into something truly amazing. Because to be honest, There are some trials out there that are just too drastic to just smile and say you're fine. In life you are allowed to cry, allowed to care. What I am saying is... just make the best can out of what you have...
"When you find peace within yourself, you become the kind of person who can live at peace with others."
~Peace Pilgrim
When we finally except the situation as it is, and understand there is nothing you can do to change the past, maybe then you can realize that the only way to go now... is forward. That means, making the best out of your situation, and taking your mistakes and learning how to adapt to the change.
Life isn't easy or fair, because no one is perfect. We make mistakes, we make dumb choices, but that is how we learn.
"Good judgment comes from experience, and experience comes from bad judgment."
~Barry LePatner
Your life doesn't end after one mistake, or many at that. It doesn't end when trial after trial is thrown at you. Life doesn't end just because everything changes. The honest truth is, we just have to get back up after the fight and keep moving. The road might be different and might have a new ending, But that is the best part about life.
Life is an open ended book... everything can be looked at differently from another angle.
~Unknown
Sometimes in life we tend to feel like we are just given the worst opportunities, the worst trials, and the worst consequences. Everyday that comes seems to tear us apart, knock us down, and question who we really are.Like I have said in past post... Life isn't fair, but what can you do about it? What happened yesterday happened. What happened today happened. And whatever happens tomorrow will happen. It is just fact...
People (Including myself), always get wrapped up in the past, in our mistakes, and just won't let it go. We let the negative experiences linger on, wrapping tightly around our life. The problem with this is, yeah crap happens, but what are you going to do to make the best of what you've got. If you can't change the past, why do you keep letting it take you down instead of living today the best you can.
Life is never perfect, and never will be, but you can always take a bad situations and make something new come out of it.
Now please don't take this the wrong way. I am not saying forget, and I am not saying that in every situation there is a way to shape it into something truly amazing. Because to be honest, There are some trials out there that are just too drastic to just smile and say you're fine. In life you are allowed to cry, allowed to care. What I am saying is... just make the best can out of what you have...
"When you find peace within yourself, you become the kind of person who can live at peace with others."
~Peace Pilgrim
When we finally except the situation as it is, and understand there is nothing you can do to change the past, maybe then you can realize that the only way to go now... is forward. That means, making the best out of your situation, and taking your mistakes and learning how to adapt to the change.
Life isn't easy or fair, because no one is perfect. We make mistakes, we make dumb choices, but that is how we learn.
"Good judgment comes from experience, and experience comes from bad judgment."
~Barry LePatner
Your life doesn't end after one mistake, or many at that. It doesn't end when trial after trial is thrown at you. Life doesn't end just because everything changes. The honest truth is, we just have to get back up after the fight and keep moving. The road might be different and might have a new ending, But that is the best part about life.
Life is an open ended book... everything can be looked at differently from another angle.
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