Today you can cry...

Sometimes all we can do is just stare at the mess we've made. Not that we want to, but as we see are mistakes bright and clear in front of our face, never to be reversed, replayed, or undone, all we can do is stare. We realize just how much we messed up, wishing and praying we could go back in time and undo everything we did...but we can't. It puts us in a state of mind where we feel like we are just sitting in the cold rain pour of a stormy day. Where the pain hurts so much that the icy drops sliding down your cheek is the only thing that makes sense.

Things are going to happen that you will wish never did...
You are going to make mistakes that will change your life...
And at somepoint, you will feel that pain that you think will never go away...

I could say that in time, things will get better. But at times like this, where it hurts so much just to think, no one want to hear the cliche future. You want to understand about right now...

All I can say is, don't be afraid to cry. There will be times in your life where being strong is just being dumb. Smile till you mean it...but don't be afraid to cry. As long as you realize that your life is not going to end right now, but for now the only thing that makes you feel better is to cry or to stick ear buds in your ear and listen to music...do it.

Tomorrow will always come, but today you can cry...

Rain...

"I watch the rain slide down my wind like tears across ones cheek.
I hear the thunder and lightning crack against the dark gray sky that is now hugging my home
The rain falls fast and hard, striking the ground Fiercely yet lightly.
My world stops for a moment as I watch the storm, and for that moment I am at peace.
Peace with the world, myself and everyone around me. For I know that after the storm will come the sun, and the rainbow.
After the storm will come the smell that warms my soul, my heart and my body. The smell of the earth right after rain.
With another boom and crack from the sky above, I close my eyes and listen...
For the world is fresh once more."

I love the rain. Its tear drops that fall from the dark and luminous clouds, that hover about our homes. I am one who loves the feel of the rain fall onto my skin, the feel of the touch slide down my cheek and my hair. Rain storms are like the climax of a story, where you know that after all the chaos, the screams and heartbreak, everything will be alright. The sun will come out, the rain will dry, and the world and your life will go back to normal.
I will listen to the storms, hear the beat of the rain against my window, and the wind outside harshly blow. I don't feel scared, or alone, but peace in my mind and body slowly relax like the gentle waves on a beach shore. For I know that, everything will be okay. Maybe not tomorrow, maybe not today, but the rain will always brings a rainbow. The rain will always brings the sun. It just takes time...
Rain...
It is not a scary thing, or a dangerous thing... for darkness doesn't always mean something bad...
Rain...it's hope

The little Twinks...

People will always tell you to look at the deeper meaning of life and all it holds within it. To look farther then you normally would, to find the beauty and pure uniqueness in the things around you. This my dear friends is very true. There is so much wonder and fascination when you read between the lines and look farther then what is right in front of you. To look into deep depth of everyday occurrences. Life has so much to offer and to show to us, if only we would take the time to look.
Beauty is all around us if you look hard enough, but there is just one problem. We get use to the fact that life never seems to come easy. That the simple things tend to slip away from our ever complex minds. Once we start looking for the deeper meanings in everyday things, we often forget to look at the obvious little twinks of beauty that lay right before our eyes. If only we would just look, and truly look.
Like anyone, when we lay out our life and all that is in it, before us, we know that life is not easy. life throws curve balls and painful events smack down the middle of our path, where you have to take the long road out. That now, we almost feel as if simple beauty is just to easy, like there is some kind of catch,but that's not always the way it is.
The world is filled to the brim with beauty...you just have to take that extra second to see the obvious an the deep...

Are you afraid to die...

"Are you afraid to die?"

Have you ever been asked that question? Thought about it? Asked it to someone else?
At some point I am sure that everyone has thought about it. Everyone's life will come to an end at some point or another. So it is almost a simple question, but deserves a complex thought to answer honestly.

In my own opinion, I would answer saying that I am not sure. There are so many things I want to have done before my final seconds finally tick away, never to come back.
I want to get married.
Hold my own child in my arms.
Go places.
There is so many things I want and wish to do.

But...I am not afraid to die either. If my time comes it comes. There is nothing I can do if my life clock runs out of time. No matter how much I scream, plead, or cry, if my time is up, it's up. The only thing I am afraid of is not letting myself be heard. Not letting my friends and family know how much they mean to me. Taking the time I have right now, and to make the best of it. Not only with my friends, but also with my family.

When those last seconds come, it is not going to matter how much clothes or shoes I have. It is not going to matter how much money I have or if I have the latest electronic device. It is going to matter how many laughs I've shared, times I've cried, and memories I have made. Those nights, adventures, and memories makers are what really count.

If I take the time I have and do everything I can to make the best of it...when my times comes, I won't be afraid...
I'll be happy that I have lived...not that I've died

He is Worth the Wait...

"Loving someone means you only want the best for him even if it means swallowing the sad reality that the best just isn’t you."
~Unknown

You can say you really care about a person, but you don't really mean it until you start putting them first before yourself. Life isn't about always getting what you want. Its about making sure the people you care about come first, not you.

There might be a time in your life where you are falling in love with someone that is in love with someone else. You sit there listening about how they found this amazing person who makes them feel so...special. While you sit there and smile, even though you are dying inside.

Here is the thing, if you honestly care about this person, and this other girl makes them happy. Then you should care more about them being happy, which means that sometimes that means you will have to suck it up even if it hurts. It will hurt, hearing him talk about this, and all you can do is try to be the best friend as you can and support him.

And if you truly like him, then they are worth the wait...

Live it for yourself...

"The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it."
- W. M. Lewis

People will say that life is so short, that no one has a chance to fully live. The way I see it is, we are given this life to do with it how we choose. The problem here is, not that we aren't given enough time, but that it is the fact it takes us so long to start living our life.
Come on people, stop watching life from the side lines. The quote, " Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die tomorrow." ~Dean James, sums it up.
We will never know when we are going to die. But when we do, I think it would be easier dying knowing that you lived a good life, then missing chances and living with regrets. Take chances, have fun, and never let an opportunity slip you by. Don't just dream but make it reality. It is your life, but it isn't yours till you take the first step forward.

~Ideas to live by~

-Take chances. Don't sit and watch the people around you. Sometimes doing things that are out of your comfort zone, is where the best moments of your life will stem from

-Take pictures everyday. Sounds geeky or lame? Well, pictures are worth a thousand words right? You never know what you are going to be doing in 5 years, but The pictures are things you can keep forever that connects you back to your past and back to your memories.

-Always have a smile and don't let the past weigh you down. Everyone holds grudges at some point but hey, don't. When you let the grudge stay with you, you can never fully experience life. Please, think about it. When you are wrapped up on who screwed you over, or crossed you, you are two focused on that then what is going on around you right now!

-Fake a smile till it is a good day. I know that some days it hurts so much to smile, and you just want to cry. But I ask you this, try to fake a smile, keep your mind open, and let the chance that something will get better.

Your life will only start meaning something when you start living it for yourself.