I haven't posted in awhile because I find myself stuck at crossing paths in my life, and I can't seen to find the words to describe how or even what I am feeling. I stand here and I can see everyone growing up, changing, and becoming something of themselves. I watch this, I see everyone change and evolve into individuals that are and going on a completely sepparate path than mine, but I can't help but wonder is this what I want? Do I really want to grow up and leave my friend that changed my life behind? Do I want to lose grasp on the friendships that got me through the darkest times in my life? Do I want to let go...
These questions run through my head every night. They come to mind when ever I open my Facebook or check my text messages. My friends are who made me who I am today. They were the reason I smiled so many times, and laughed so hard I cried on countless occasions. So how can I let them go, when everything good about me is because of them. My past is disappearing, not just my friends but the places I grew up or went to school, they have been torn down or changed.
I have come to understand the statements adults have said, which was "Enjoy these days as a kid, because before long, they are just going to be memories you hold on to"
I don't want to let go, and everyday I wish I could just rewind time for just one second to that, princess bride movie party, or laying on the trampoline with a bunch of my friends looking up at the stars, but I can't rewind time. I can't go back and relive those friendships that have faded into my past. I have to let go...that doesn't mean forget, but I have to let go to move forward in my life, because hopefully moments like that will happen again but not if I'm stuck in the past.
Don't let time slip away from you, take a hold of the moments you have right now, because one day they are just going to be a memory you can remember...
